I don’t think – or didn’t thinkg it was time to move on – just because we were away.

So all I think & do dealing with you isn’t weird – it’s normal.  I missed a loved on alot.  We said a lot —

I accused you of using me — not ture…. but I feel hurt — & a bit shell shocked so I am not able to explain everything.  I love you — but what I have misrepresented as total devotion is confusion & loss for a desperately desired solution.  You accused me of not having any direction — which also crazed me. I am meeting all my needs, I am traveling — becomingin more productive since I graduated — getting geared.  You seem no closer than me — so it comes across as hypocrticial… How long before you’re done with school?  How long until you start your real life?  I am in better shape in some ways.  And at least I know whether or not I love you.

THIS IS DANGEROUS STUFF!!!!

Call me when you’re done with your “time & space”.  I cannot handle having my love somewhere she cannot tell… we need to see each other… desperately….

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