It’s funny because I thought of you yesterday. I was wondering if you listen to as much NPR as me, and how your year might be going GREAT and you are gittin hitched and life is happening to you and although we hadn’t chatted, I was just, generally, happy for you, and smugly contented by that. To be fair, at the tail end of these thoughts, I trailed off into the complexity of relationships and whether it was fair for me to assume anything about your current emotional state. I am starting to realize it’s not even fair to judge mine, but by all accounts wifey & I are in some awkward and mythical place where i cannot in good conscious recommend love or marriage to anyone because it’s not pragmatic, nor likely, but in our case the lightning struck so here we stand, an everlasting duality, a hypocrisy for the cynic stalwart who hides ‘neath this furrowed brow, rambling syrup about social woes, thick and sticky. I know you don’t see him, the dour gent, because he has been tabled for the time being, possibly rent asunder. I can’t stand for that negativity. Nor sit, however I do that now. And I *am* alone at this point in time, but it’s only because the work day hasn’t ended. Actually Pavlov is here. He likes you. But the point is, alone, I still carry her with me. Sometimes she makes me smile at things I wouldn’t understand. So there’s your answer – My lady and I are doing exceptionally well, and whether it be constant delusion or agreed upon infantile goofiness that provides the glue here, we feel stuck together like a lime treatment on a clay substrate. Jujubee in dental work? Probably more inseparable like the floor and a wall. Who’s who you say? I know relationships, and I know the character arc that has a second half that can shorten and nose dive – this did seem to be “every” relationship. I guess I just hadn’t found the last one? My current state feels serene, and fulfilling – and all i can say, as I was thinking of me thinking of you, how ludicrously lucky I feel and barring a dropped boot things will stay this way for a long time, and then, ambling rambling mind back to you — I realized you seem to be one of the only people who demonstrates that giddiness with their partner, and one of the one of the only ones that exudes that, and then I look to the horizon and assume I will see you there, and we will double date while feeling guiltily content at our loves and lives. So I was back to assuming I could assume your emotional state, and likely spot on if decipherable……
but that it’s likely proven that mine, is, in no uncertain terms, somewhat dire.